Over this past year, I have had a lot of time to think, and I decided that I need to do something for me. I wanted to do something that CJ would be proud of, that he would cheer me on, and I know he will; he always did. I felt safe, now, I feel vulnerable. I need to find confidence in myself so that I can start my journey moving foreword, without CJ physically here with me. I have researched a lot of groups that do humanitarian work in Africa, and I decided to go with Mothers Without Borders, because I felt it was the best for my situation and I love working with children. I will be hands on in these orphanages with these beautiful children in a very humbling way; my eyes will be "opened". I also will be working with a lot of women who have lost their husbands, children, and family. I have so much more compassion for those who feel what I feel and I hope I can give them strength and gain in return. The group I am going with leaves June 17th and I will be gone for a month. I hope I can get lost in the work and somewhere along the way I can find me.
Thank you so much for your support. It really is so amazing all the support I have. No words can truly express how thankful I am for your help. I pray that this can help me. I have felt so stuck this past year and I hope this will allow me to start taking steps forward.
